Check out that irritating, arrogant, mind-numbing person over there. How many times have you forced yourself to stay quietly in the shadows while they ran amuck, doing and saying everything they want? How many times have you been left to clean up the messes created by that jerk?
Probably more times than you care to admit, right?
Thing is…it would be so much easier to go around putting out all those fires if it really were another person lighting your life ablaze. When you apologize for what another person did, you get sympathy. When you apologize for something you personally did or said for the 9,000th time, well…not so much.
To be clear, that jerk running around ruining your life is you.
Pardon me, but would you mind if I killed you?
This week, I thought it would be fun to get back to the Within Temptation lyric I meant to post when before I let myself get sidetracked by Fate.
“Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to ’cause you have turned in to my worst enemy. You carry hate that I don’t feel. It’s over now. What have you done?” ~ What Have You Done
After listening to the song a LOT and watching the video a few times, I’m pretty sure the song’s talking about another person. Of course, I don’t advocate trying to kill other people around here – even with their permission – so I think we’ll draw a slightly different meaning from it.
This week, let’s not think about the other people who’ve wronged us in the past. Let’s not consider all the negativity dumped on us from others. Instead, let’s focus on all the times where we hear ourselves behaving badly and are unable to crawl out from within our own heads to stop ourselves. (PMS-related meltdowns don’t count. Zero in on the non-hormonal stuff you could control if you wanted to.)
Basically, we’re turning our focus to all the spectacular ways we sabotage our lives without the help of others.
Once you have a clear picture of that person you don’t want to be, the one who fights tooth and nail to keep you from becoming who you’re meant to be, imagine what your life would be like if they didn’t exist.
Imagine what your life would be like if you killed that person, ridding yourself of all their hate and bile in the process.
Hmm…what would that be like?
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